I just feel blech. I'm tired of being tired and of being in pain almost all the time. In July I posted briefly about the lump I'd found at the top of my left ribcage. I was sent in for a CT scan, which didn't clear up what my lump is, but it did show spots on my spleen. Anyway, doctor thought it was just inflammation and it should go away eventually. Well, it's been over 5 months and the lump has not gone away. It hasn't grown, but it's become more painful. I take 2-3 Aleve 2-3 times a day now ~ which can't be healthy.

I'm tired a lot ~ just no energy for anything. And don't get me started on my moods. I just feel blech. I kid you not, yesterday I truly wondered if this is what dying feels like. Morbid yes, but I just know something is off.

Next week, I go in for a full blood screening ~ CBC, I believe is what it's called. Then at the end of the month is my next CT scan. I just wish they'd find out what it is. I'm not a hypochondriac ~ I just know something feels off. I'm nauteaous all the time, I'm tired, and I'm in pain. That's just not normal.

So hopefully I only have one more month to wait and maybe, just maybe, they will finally find out what's wrong.

Oh, and on a completely unrelated note ~ our next friends of the library sale is October 20. I have a feeling I'll be spending money that day. Now, where am I going to fit more books? I'm tempted to start sleeping on the couch and turn my bedroom into a library (not really, but it's an option).

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