I'm not liking my job much anymore. It seems most days I come to work and can think of about a million things I'd rather be doing ~ and that includes scrubbing the toilets anywhere but here. I'm just completely unmotivated to be here, which is sad because I used to love my job. I'd been here 5 years and I still loved it ~ I enjoyed coming to work everyday. Sure, there were things I didn't like but all-in-all, I still loved it. In October last year, our department went through a reorganization and I got a "promotion". What that promotion entailed was combing my job duties with another person's job duties (aka, the boss's daughter). Essentially what happened, is that the best parts about my job were taken away from me and I was left with a lot of shit with a very little shovel. It's almost been a year and I'm just not sure. I still have some good days, but otherwise I'm just surviving here. Which really sucks since I used to love to be here.
So, from time to time I browse the want ads. My problem though, is the benefits. I've got fairly good benefits. My paid time off accrual is excellent now ~ for every 80 hours I work, I get 9 hours off so it seems I can usually take time off anytime I want/need it. That's the biggie ~ but I've also got insurance, 401k, and other little perks. I hate to think of starting over somewhere, after investing 6 years here. But the paid time off thing is what's really keeping me here.
Next week, I'm taking a mental health weekend ~ I'm taking Friday and Monday off. 4 luxurious days where I plan on doing nothing but laying around on my lazy butt and reading. I need a break. Which, I just had a 3-day weekend over Labor Day; and I just took a vacation at the end of July. I shouldn't be this burnt out.
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow with a podiatrist. I'm finally biting the bullet and having my feet looked at. I've been having heel pain for about two months now. It started while I was in Minnesota on vacation and just hasn't gone away. Then there are my hammertoes which are actually starting to ache all of time and I'm probably looking at surgery. But, I'm not going in until January if I have to go in. For one, I'm out of Flex money. For two, if I have my surgery in January I'll have already met my insurance deductible for the year ~ versus having surgery this late in the year.....Which brings me back to the benefits thing at work. If I have surgery, I can tap into my Extended Ill bank which is time off the company provides if you're off work due to an extended illness or injury.....Which brings me back to why maybe I shouldn't look for a new job quite yet.
Which brings me to the fact that I really need a second job, but I'm hesitant to look for one right now with all of the other stuff going on. But the money would be nice. I'm seriously considering donating plasma. It's $50/week and all I have to do is give blood. I could just lay on the bed and read. One hour/once a week/$50 ~ Gawd I sound like a poor college student. Which, I am kind of ~ I have to pay back my student loans.
Anyone watch Rockstar Supernova last night? What did you think of the outcome? I knew Magni would be the first to go, but Toby's elimination surprised me. I somehow thought he'd win ~ even though he wasn't my favorite. I wish they would have brought back all of the performers for the final show like they did last year.
Dancing with the Stars anyone? What did you think of that? I'm glad Sara's staying for another week. I don't see her winning, but I sure like her and glad she gets a chance to do better next week. So who's going to be eliminated next week ~ Harry or Jerry?
I bought Slave to Sensation
at Walmart last night! I'm looking forward to reading it once I finish Anyone But You
(I'm on the last 60 pages). I now have 42 books in my tbr pile. Think I can read them by the end of the year?